December 5, 2008

~* A sight of plight! *~

A busy street, bustling with sounds of horns from vehicles - small to big, zooming past the petty shops stacked on the sides. Alongside the road...almost invisible to the fast moving people, a black sintex tank sits on the the pavement. Making it hard to say it's truly black, many layers of posters are stuck on it..newly released movies..heroine's head cut..hero's face torn, hardly one can make out the movie's name. Next to this tank.. a few meters away.. an electric box, locked and painted with a danger sign on it. As if ironically, there's an innocent looking young boy, sitting on the stone slab that bases the box.

He should be around 13-14 years of age, but seems younger than that as he surprises the passer-bys with his child-like gestures and behavior. Dressed in only a pair of 'Khaki' colored trousers, mixed with the dust and dirt, displaying different shades of brown. Torn on the sides, mistaken for pockets, the only piece of clothing that seems to be his cover. His bare chest, patted lavishly with the ' Powder of the Poor', that's to say the mud and the soil. He doesn't give a pleasing sight.. maybe that's why no one notices this loner! Sitting day and night in the same place, hardly visible to the hurrying people on the roads.

He sits on the bench, one leg carelessly hanging and the other placed upright, knees bent on the bench. Looking up into the vast blue sky, chanting a 'prayer' like something in a language only he seems to understand. Not steady for a minute, his eyes glistening with unconscious tears, move so fast like a black coin on a carom board. He then shifts his attention back to the roads, points his finger at someone...anyone...or actually no one and starts talking to 'them'. He has no regret, no embarrassment in gaining incredible momentary attention as he jumps up from his almost statued position, to stand on the middle of the pavement, startling the pedestrians with shock. Unmindful of being a hindrance to these mundane masses' way, he goes round and round and round on his weak legs, now shaking.. predicting a fall anytime. Dizzy now, he sits back on the bench, resuming another position, now almost still, only to fool yet another set of unaware people who walk past him. He sits there in silence, a firm gaze on the speeding vehicles, his eyes imitating a slow pendulum, his lips slightly parted to reveal a set of crooked teeth… lips swollen making it a little hard to remain closed, his hands perched on his bruised knees, occasionally rubbing the non-existent itch on his face.
No one dares to interfere, as he is lost completely in his own world, a solitude so precious, a language only familiar to him, innocently fighting a battle to live, carelessly living in this care forgotten world, a soldier in his own terms, fighting an almost dying battle, this boy is a Survivor...but a prisoner of his sickness!!

June 30, 2008

That thing called LOVE!




LOVE …
LOVE…????
In this world of pain, hurt, treachery, hatred, vengeance….it does exist! Love exists…passes through every little hurdle…and survives….survives to know that it can change the whole world. Such is the greatness of this simple emotion, which can’t be defined in one concept. It brings together hearts, melting even the strongest of boulders, yet all this is done silently and stealthily.


To love a person takes a great deal of courage, for it is just not another emotion that you can get over with or you can control or you can just calm it down….Love involves attachment, caring, intimacy, passion, bonding and most importantly, it involves that fragile thing –TRUST, which is the base for the commitment in love! Well, am not trying to scare anyone here, but then those who know of friendship, will know of love, and will know of what am talking about. Love is the exchange of your mind with another, your heart with another. It is tricky, risky, and unpredictable than most complicated of transplantations. You can’t explain why you fall in love with someone. As many say, opposites attract, but it can also mean you like that someone because they are similar to you in many ways. Whatever be the case, love happens…it jus does!!

Love doesn’t see time, caste, creed, status, and religion; it doesn’t see anything at all when it first comes. I am not really sure of love at first sight, but then the first sight can be the start of something. It’s the attraction that takes the priority in this case. But when it comes to a strong bonding for a long-term relationship, the priorities are different. You might have been friends with a person for a really long time, but gradually you realize the emotion has changed and you are ‘in love’ with this person. How can it be? How can this happen? Well, let me try telling you what I think. You like this person for some reason, the good vibes, and the similar likes and dislikes, the way you guys can initiate a conversation from thin air, etc. Unconsciously your mind reads them thoroughly; it taps into them, their personality, their character, evaluating the chances of being more than friends. You end up penetrating deep, loving them all the while, and finally reach the core… and there you find the most unexplainable rush,
you are in love, in love with this person, in love with this heart… this soul!

Now you all must be floating in this feeling, for it would have rung a thousand bells in your head by now. So let me just touch on yet another thing…. True love…True love?? What is that? …. I don’t really believe when someone says my love is true. It is so clichéd. Do they really know if it’s true? Can they prove to the world their love is different from others? Will their love conquer all????

Oh…. True love is not really what people call ‘true love’. It can never be defined. Everyone has their own definitions. But the truth is, it’s far more than you can define, far more than anyone can feel, too good to be on earth, it’s simply magic…

You might say all these are YOUR definitions…so what?? I still defined the one thing no one can really define… LOVE….


June 30, 2007

Monsoon Moods


"Past is Past!"....we have heard many say this... but then, it cant be that way always. Still, most of us hate thinkin of our past, many fear it may repeat again, many still live a dreadful life in the memories of the PAST! What is it that makes it soooo HARD to forget the PAST? ? i have been in a situation wher day and night, i think of my past...not cause i LOVE it but 'cause it wont leave me alone! The waves of my past lash on my mind's shore... bringin wit it the things i don wanna remember again...the things i fear ... the things that bring pain!...I get up every morning wit the same thought on my mind, and when i go to bed.. it lingers ...and stays even in my dreams!! what was i to do? every time it comes.. i cry and fall back..i succumb to its emotions! I couldn help myself out of it! The past memories...was bringin up, in me, an unsettled anger, disgust & hatered, a disbelief... i wanted answers, i wanted many ANSWERS...but i knew i wont get them.. so what should i do to save myself from fallin into this useless deep pit again and again??! I decided... PAST shouldn change my PRESENT AND FUTURE! i wont let it..."i WILL try to forget or atleast hold back the waves from hittin my heart's shore!" i learned to hold it back, i engaged myself in work i love..i tried listenin to MUSIC-A MIRACULOUS MAGICIAN!, i did things that eased the pain, i pursued my faith,i did things i enjoyed..which made me happy and put a SMILE on everyone's face(includin me)..but STILL it haunted me from time to time... OH...!! Well, it started helpin me realise that i was becomin a strong-willed person, i was able to fight it...although it was tough in the beginin...i soon learned! TIME does really heal, the wounds...the 'scars'!! ...though i know i will break down again now when i go back to my past memories, i am quick in shuttin the past from appearin! it does sneak its ugly head once or twice when i am happy and unmindful of it ..but i am now EMOTIONALLY STRONG enough to push it right back in...i can control it...I HAVE THE POWER OVER MY PAST!!...i only LAUGH now, lookin at how i was... and i wonder * how much i have changed from my PAST.....SOOOO FAST!!! :)

June 15, 2007

~* L' Amour *~

Together we learned,
Lessons at college,
Lessons of life!
Shared little secrets,
Dealt with many regrets,
Had the hardest of strife!

Through pain, through gain,
Mountains of strain,
Life was so sweet,
‘Coz your love always rained!

Comfort & guidance,
Understanding every sound of our hearts’ silence!
We stood by each other,
This relation will fly even higher!

Hearts may break, Words may fake,
We may make a million mistakes,
But through it all,
Our strength won’t fall!
This magic called Love, this little fairy tale,
Will keep on growing happily ever after!!

June 11, 2007

"Ouch!"

HURT! The word by itself leaves a scar on our lips.. imagine this word being put to use! i know that this world is not made of dreams that come true, faith that works fast, love that never dies!! But i still hate to think that i am right! Well, hurt, hurting and being hurt are all the same. It inflicts pain on one who gives it in and the one who gets it. As youngsters, the only hurt we can relate to is 'LOVE HURTS'! Love does hurt, i agree, it hurts more than a physical blow from the strongest guy in your college! it hurts more than a high fall from a tallest place, more than DEATH! why? ..i hav no idea, but it sure does some good to us. we learn a lot, we discover emotions that was locked for long!we know who we are and how to cope with the reality of being hurt mentally!!! But the truth is, Life is full of this **** .. we cant escape the pain, we need to take in the hurt and analyse the truth we get from the pain! I know i sound a bit lame, but you will soon understand what i mean. We all know hurt is all around us, we know we will be hurt sooner or later, but what we can do is, we can decide which hurt is worth takin in and analyzing!Think about it, after all, my words would have rung a thousand bells in your head by now!

June 10, 2007

Maskin` it!



Well..let me get straight to it...we all wear masks..(not literally)..we tend to change it from time to time.We don't intentionally do it, but the situation and circumstances just demand us to.We wear a lot of masks to portray us as someone sweet or rude or innocent or decent,  snobbish, social, friendly, trust worthy..etc the list jus goes on and on..Can we really do anything about this?? ...i am afraid not! it has become an essential necessity for our everyday survival.I guess we will all look ugly and scary when we tear down our 'human masks!! Our real face is not yet seen by any..or do we really have one to show?