Monsoon Moods

"Past is Past!"....we have heard many say this... but then, it cant be that way always. Still, most of us hate thinkin of our past, many fear it may repeat again, many still live a dreadful life in the memories of the PAST! What is it that makes it soooo HARD to forget the PAST? ? i have been in a situation wher day and night, i think of my past...not cause i LOVE it but 'cause it wont leave me alone! The waves of my past lash on my mind's shore... bringin wit it the things i don wanna remember again...the things i fear ... the things that bring pain!...I get up every morning wit the same thought on my mind, and when i go to bed.. it lingers ...and stays even in my dreams!! what was i to do? every time it comes.. i cry and fall back..i succumb to its emotions! I couldn help myself out of it! The past memories...was bringin up, in me, an unsettled anger, disgust & hatered, a disbelief... i wanted answers, i wanted many ANSWERS...but i knew i wont get them.. so what should i do to save myself from fallin into this useless deep pit again and again??! I decided... PAST shouldn change my PRESENT AND FUTURE! i wont let it..."i WILL try to forget or atleast hold back the waves from hittin my heart's shore!" i learned to hold it back, i engaged myself in work i love..i tried listenin to MUSIC-A MIRACULOUS MAGICIAN!, i did things that eased the pain, i pursued my faith,i did things i enjoyed..which made me happy and put a SMILE on everyone's face(includin me)..but STILL it haunted me from time to time... OH...!! Well, it started helpin me realise that i was becomin a strong-willed person, i was able to fight it...although it was tough in the beginin...i soon learned! TIME does really heal, the wounds...the 'scars'!! ...though i know i will break down again now when i go back to my past memories, i am quick in shuttin the past from appearin! it does sneak its ugly head once or twice when i am happy and unmindful of it ..but i am now EMOTIONALLY STRONG enough to push it right back in...i can control it...I HAVE THE POWER OVER MY PAST!!...i only LAUGH now, lookin at how i was... and i wonder * how much i have changed from my PAST.....SOOOO FAST!!! :)

~* L' Amour *~

Together we learned,
Lessons at college,
Lessons of life!
Shared little secrets,
Dealt with many regrets,
Had the hardest of strife!

Through pain, through gain,
Mountains of strain,
Life was so sweet,
‘Coz your love always rained!

Comfort & guidance,
Understanding every sound of our hearts’ silence!
We stood by each other,
This relation will fly even higher!

Hearts may break, Words may fake,
We may make a million mistakes,
But through it all,
Our strength won’t fall!
This magic called Love, this little fairy tale,
Will keep on growing happily ever after!!

"Ouch!"

HURT! The word by itself leaves a scar on our lips.. imagine this word being put to use! i know that this world is not made of dreams that come true, faith that works fast, love that never dies!! But i still hate to think that i am right! Well, hurt, hurting and being hurt are all the same. It inflicts pain on one who gives it in and the one who gets it. As youngsters, the only hurt we can relate to is 'LOVE HURTS'! Love does hurt, i agree, it hurts more than a physical blow from the strongest guy in your college! it hurts more than a high fall from a tallest place, more than DEATH! why? ..i hav no idea, but it sure does some good to us. we learn a lot, we discover emotions that was locked for long!we know who we are and how to cope with the reality of being hurt mentally!!! But the truth is, Life is full of this **** .. we cant escape the pain, we need to take in the hurt and analyse the truth we get from the pain! I know i sound a bit lame, but you will soon understand what i mean. We all know hurt is all around us, we know we will be hurt sooner or later, but what we can do is, we can decide which hurt is worth takin in and analyzing!Think about it, after all, my words would have rung a thousand bells in your head by now!

Maskin` it!

Well..let me get straight to it...we all wear masks..(not literally)..we tend to change it from time to time.We don't intentionally do it, but the situation and circumstances just demand us to.We wear a lot of masks to portray us as someone sweet or rude or innocent or decent,  snobbish, social, friendly, trust worthy..etc the list jus goes on and on..Can we really do anything about this?? ...i am afraid not! it has become an essential necessity for our everyday survival.I guess we will all look ugly and scary when we tear down our 'human masks!! Our real face is not yet seen by any..or do we really have one to show?