June 30, 2007

Monsoon Moods


"Past is Past!"....we have heard many say this... but then, it cant be that way always. Still, most of us hate thinkin of our past, many fear it may repeat again, many still live a dreadful life in the memories of the PAST! What is it that makes it soooo HARD to forget the PAST? ? i have been in a situation wher day and night, i think of my past...not cause i LOVE it but 'cause it wont leave me alone! The waves of my past lash on my mind's shore... bringin wit it the things i don wanna remember again...the things i fear ... the things that bring pain!...I get up every morning wit the same thought on my mind, and when i go to bed.. it lingers ...and stays even in my dreams!! what was i to do? every time it comes.. i cry and fall back..i succumb to its emotions! I couldn help myself out of it! The past memories...was bringin up, in me, an unsettled anger, disgust & hatered, a disbelief... i wanted answers, i wanted many ANSWERS...but i knew i wont get them.. so what should i do to save myself from fallin into this useless deep pit again and again??! I decided... PAST shouldn change my PRESENT AND FUTURE! i wont let it..."i WILL try to forget or atleast hold back the waves from hittin my heart's shore!" i learned to hold it back, i engaged myself in work i love..i tried listenin to MUSIC-A MIRACULOUS MAGICIAN!, i did things that eased the pain, i pursued my faith,i did things i enjoyed..which made me happy and put a SMILE on everyone's face(includin me)..but STILL it haunted me from time to time... OH...!! Well, it started helpin me realise that i was becomin a strong-willed person, i was able to fight it...although it was tough in the beginin...i soon learned! TIME does really heal, the wounds...the 'scars'!! ...though i know i will break down again now when i go back to my past memories, i am quick in shuttin the past from appearin! it does sneak its ugly head once or twice when i am happy and unmindful of it ..but i am now EMOTIONALLY STRONG enough to push it right back in...i can control it...I HAVE THE POWER OVER MY PAST!!...i only LAUGH now, lookin at how i was... and i wonder * how much i have changed from my PAST.....SOOOO FAST!!! :)

6 comments:

Simply Luna-tik ! said...

As I'm at the "absurd" community, right now, I feel inspired to write one here too...---->

"Our Past never leaves us...??
Someone's gonna be hunting you!",I said..
Splash!
She kicked up her hooves and let out a "moo"
A sniff, a snort, OH NO, Achoo..!!

:p

ram said...

nice one buddy.... impressive

Shalini Gowrisankar said...

Nice one girl.. You've been tagged by me ..:D . You've got to list out 7 random things about you.. and tag 7 ppl in return .. Have fun!

Logu said...

Cool.. one...

Mohammed said...

wow superb.....ur really cool yuveline...keep it up....

Mohammed said...

ur de great person i ever seen...